I could do a Blue song, for example. With emotions associated with blue. When I asked people, these emotions came up: sadness, melancholy, vision of a night sky or ocean deep waters. Then I could do a Red song; violence, blood, war, passion. Now with this, I could do a Magenta song in the middle, fusing both Red and Blue emotions. And I would follow the same concept for the 3 remaining songs.
IV. The Mountain
The concept of Lenses was born. It was huge. An immense mountain to climb. Now I told myself that I was going to mentally carve stairs to the top of this mountain; that meant making sure that each step is realistic. After which, the project will obviously and logically, be entirely possible to build. Not easy, not simple, but doable. That's what I did: I kept track on a weird table to-do list and an Excel sheet.
I started to build the album... constantly giving myself very demanding deadlines. I started planning and slowly, I started creating.
I had originally saved to build myself a strong gaming computer to build a Minecraft-based Youtube channel. I took all this money and built myself a home studio.
Some things were really hard, like recording my first song for the first time. The trust I had in my voice was very fragile, and the pressure I was putting on myself was to have something that could hold its own in the professional pop industry. Actually, better. So I wanted a good voice. And singing is extremely psychological, if you don't trust your voice, you sing much worse than if you trust it, then you can sing to your full potential. And I didn't trust it, made me fail, which made me trust it even less. It took me 9 months with around 5-8 sessions of recording sessions 2 to 4 hours to finally get my voice "right" on Magenta (still not completely proud of it). Then I lost my computer. And I had to re-do it but 3 months after it was done and nice.
V. With Flying Colours
Two years after I would tell people that making this album was 80% pain, 10% hype and 10% "I'm feeling good about what I'm doing right now". I still think these numbers are true. It was really hard. The funny thing is, 1 year in the process of making it, after having already spent hundreds and hundreds of hours into it, I realized I had no clue why I was doing all of it.
I'd tell my parents:
I'm gonna stop working on this. I don't even know why I'm doing it, and I'm gonna concentrate fully onto imagining my education system and building my education project.
It was becoming clearer and clearer to me that I wanted to make the world a significantly better place during my life time. I thought, another music album, even if very original and very good, would not bring anything really positive to the world. It was already really hard to make this music album, but it was also meaningless.
But...in a way, it made me feel superior to the average person; I had more reasons to survive, my life was worth more and I would get pride out of this, yes, I would get pride out of this work. Because it was hard, and I was going forward.
To this day, I haven't heard of anyone younger than me who has done all the work on a modern, well produced, mixed and mastered (my opinion) music album. The youngest person I heard of was 10 years older. That made me proud too. Who knows, maybe I have a world record!
Anyways, I'm still working on it right now - re-producing, re-mixing, remastering it. Kind of when I want to, because, yeah, for the most part, I was very critical of my work, but there were times when I liked what I was doing…more than that, actually!
Sometimes, I felt super energized, super proud and dancing to my own songs and loving them, as a listener. And that felt great.
VI. Through the Lens
Every song has some hidden features!
In every song you can hear the theme of the next song in the album, which is played by a music instrument or sometimes even sung by the voice. Sometimes it's obvious, sometimes it's more hidden.
In every song, one or multiple time, you can hear : "do4 do5 sol4" (transposed in different things) on a bell like or piano instrument. This is what I call my MIDI signature.
In every song, you hear my "voice signature" "his name is NAME". I had chosen this name because I wanted anonymity but now, I'm thinking one of uses of this album that to exist would need it to be linked to my name.
Special thanks to Makayla Laluha for the tremendous help on the lyrics. She made me feel like my lyrics were not plastic and that I could actually make something cool. And she gave me the precious feedback of a native English speaker and songwriter.
I’d like to close with a something I’ve learned over time – it was awesome, I’m so proud of it, but,
As expected, it took much longer than expected.
It may have, Timo, but it was worth it.
You exemplify humans' limitless capacity for growth, and we are very excited to have you with us.
Timo is a Bachelor in our High Tech Entrepreneurship programme. Check out his music on Soundcloud, or swing by Harbour.Space to say hello.